i painted this weekend. outside in the front yard. with katie and the 2 neighbors. people looked at us funny when they went by. it made me feel happy. i decided that yellow was the color of the day. i painted the entire surface bright sunshine yellow- the kind of yellow that you need sunglasses on to look at. i then used all the unusual things i could think of to make different shapes/designs/textures. i used a paperclip, a razor (a solei one- i really hate those- i mean to shave not to paint with), a cap to a bottle of beer and a plastic fork. if i'm not too lazy i might take a picture of it and post it someday. if im feeling really ambitious i might even try to sell it on etsy.
next tuesday is d-day for my gallbladder. 9am it leaves my body never to return. i was tempted to ask my surgeon if i could keep it in a jar- but i figured that was gross and i didn't want to end up like this one person i know where they found a relatives tonsils in the attic of their house after they passed away.
thats pretty much all i've got for now. OH! one more thing. yesterday i went to walmart with Nou- and we were walking through the pet aisles and we saw some betta fish with a big sign next to it that you should not put 2 males in one bowl together. i've heard this before but never really believed they would fight. well- i you tube'd it last night-- it's crazy how they act when you put 2 in a bowl together- or when they think they are in a bowl with another male. who knew fish were such angry animals. i wonder if there are people who can talk to fish..... ya know like dog therapists..... sadly- im curious enough to add that to my google notebook.
i know. im special. but that's why you like me...... right?
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
you have some gall!!--bladder --- problems.
so last week i had two days in a row that i thought someone was stabbing me in the stomach repeatedly. it was the worst pain ever. the kind of pain that makes you feel like you will always have that pain... that kind of pain that turns you into a complete bitch- and moving or speaking or even hearing a sound makes you feel like you want to punch someone in the face.
i figured two days was enough... i thought maybe it was something i ate, or maybe i had an alien (with horns and claws) that hatched in my stomach and wanted out. to rule out the alien i thought it was time to go to the dr. so i went.... he pushed on my stomach- which made me want to punch him in the face (i had self control this day and didn't do it)- he wasn't sure what was going on so they took some blood and he sent me on my way to have an ultrasound done. i had that done on friday by a really nice lady. but i must say she had the weirdest shoes on- they were way too big for her feet and were just... ugly. anyways- she was really sweet.
i got the results this morning. apparently i have some gallstones and "sludge" in my gallbladder. i'm not really sure what "sludge" is and i didn't care to hear about it... so i just said ok now what. well lucky me- tomorrow i get to go meet with my surgeon and set a surgery date to have my gallbladder taken out. (this is what was implied-- so it could be that they will just give me some drugs and send me on my way.... but considering this is a very common problem for people like myself- im sure they will just take it out).
thankfully i hear this surgery isn't bad. i hear some people don't even have to stay in the hospital overnight- which would be a-ok with me. im not that into staying in hospitals overnight. the only good thing that would come out of me having to spend the night in the hospital would be i would probably get to see some of my nurses from september and december when i was there. they were the best!! other then that- i can't think of any perks of staying over night in the hospital.... even missing work right now isn't a perk... im dreading that too- it's our busiest time of year and i cringe at the thought of being out for a couple days and coming back to mountains and mountains and plateaus of work. speaking of work... should probably do some of that now.
i figured two days was enough... i thought maybe it was something i ate, or maybe i had an alien (with horns and claws) that hatched in my stomach and wanted out. to rule out the alien i thought it was time to go to the dr. so i went.... he pushed on my stomach- which made me want to punch him in the face (i had self control this day and didn't do it)- he wasn't sure what was going on so they took some blood and he sent me on my way to have an ultrasound done. i had that done on friday by a really nice lady. but i must say she had the weirdest shoes on- they were way too big for her feet and were just... ugly. anyways- she was really sweet.
i got the results this morning. apparently i have some gallstones and "sludge" in my gallbladder. i'm not really sure what "sludge" is and i didn't care to hear about it... so i just said ok now what. well lucky me- tomorrow i get to go meet with my surgeon and set a surgery date to have my gallbladder taken out. (this is what was implied-- so it could be that they will just give me some drugs and send me on my way.... but considering this is a very common problem for people like myself- im sure they will just take it out).
thankfully i hear this surgery isn't bad. i hear some people don't even have to stay in the hospital overnight- which would be a-ok with me. im not that into staying in hospitals overnight. the only good thing that would come out of me having to spend the night in the hospital would be i would probably get to see some of my nurses from september and december when i was there. they were the best!! other then that- i can't think of any perks of staying over night in the hospital.... even missing work right now isn't a perk... im dreading that too- it's our busiest time of year and i cringe at the thought of being out for a couple days and coming back to mountains and mountains and plateaus of work. speaking of work... should probably do some of that now.
Monday, March 16, 2009
so much to say.....
so tonight.. i decided it was time i blog again... but as i sit here i can't think of anything i really want to say. actually.. i have a lot to say- but 1) i am way too lazy to type and think tonight and 2) well.. i guess im just lazy.
ever get great ideas of things you want to do and yet you just feel way to lazy to actually do them? that's me the last few days... i feel like there is so much i want to do- but i have no ambition to actually follow through on it. not everything though i guess- i did actually paint for the first time in months this weekend. it felt good- frustrating- but good. someday i'll take a picture of some of my paintings.....
its 8:05 and it feels like 3 am to me. i didn't sleep well last night. my mind was too restless.
anyways. intervention is on now- sadly i realy like that show because it makes me feel better..... seriously watch it sometime- you will realize things aren't so bad!
alrighty- well i'll ramble soon.... maybe.... if i stop being lazy.
ever get great ideas of things you want to do and yet you just feel way to lazy to actually do them? that's me the last few days... i feel like there is so much i want to do- but i have no ambition to actually follow through on it. not everything though i guess- i did actually paint for the first time in months this weekend. it felt good- frustrating- but good. someday i'll take a picture of some of my paintings.....
its 8:05 and it feels like 3 am to me. i didn't sleep well last night. my mind was too restless.
anyways. intervention is on now- sadly i realy like that show because it makes me feel better..... seriously watch it sometime- you will realize things aren't so bad!
alrighty- well i'll ramble soon.... maybe.... if i stop being lazy.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
whoops
it's been 2 months since i last blogged. some might take that as a sign that i have nothing to say- but those that know me know i ALWAYS have something to say... about something...
today on my way home from work i decided it was time i blog again. but then i got home and decided that playing monopoly on my wii was a better idea. i played that stupid game for 2 hours. i realized mid way through the game how much i hated the "computerized" version of monopoly. it takes forever- and the computer always seems to win. thank goodness i didn't actually buy the game. i rented it from blockbuster- i figured that was the smart way to test out games im interested in. that way i don't spend $40 on a game that i can't stand. it's just too bad you can't rent a wii fit. im considering buying one... but just can't make a decision. i mean- do you really get a workout using it?!?
so.. in the last 2 months a lot has gone on in life. i was feeling pretty shitty for pretty much all of November. so shitty that i didn't think i was ever going to feel good again.... you know how when you get a cold and you feel like you are always going to have it? that's how i was starting to feel. i was frustrated, tired, weak, cranky, emotional.... you name it.
on December 1st or 2nd (i can't remember) i was admitted to the hospital to have a feeding tube placed in my stomach.... i was down in the creepy cold room where they do the procedure and i hear- lindsey- we won't be able to put the feeding tube in you- your liver is in the way. i remember asking the nurse if i was going to die. even though i was pretty out of it (i don't remember most of my hospital stay) i knew that i need nutrients in my body- and i wasn't able to do it by eating at that time.
i won't bore you with all the details of what went on.. but to summarize i was in the hospital for almost a week- a couple of those days were spent in ICU. my potassium dropped to a 2. (normal is between 3.5-4). the dr's actually told my parents if i was there age i probably wouldn't have pulled through all of this. i was discharged from the hospital on dec. 7th and was sent home with a tpn machine. it's kinda like an iv- but it gave me all the nutrients i needed. i spent 14 hours a day hooked up to this machine. i did this for almost 3 weeks.
skipping ahead to now.... (im feeling lazy and don't feel like typing everything...) i'm feeling pretty good. im able to eat my 3 meals a day and am able to get more fluids in then i was previously. im still not hitting my goal/recommendation of 64 ounces a day- but im trying my best. i started back at work last week. which was nice. i missed the socialization.
i must say- going through all that i have since my surgery has really showed me who my true friends are. i was pretty hurt- that i only had 1 visitor the entire time i was in the hospital and out of work- which was pretty much the entire month of december. in fact- i really didn't have any communication from my friends. a couple people called once or twice to check in- but that was about it. let me tell ya- december was a lonely month. i spose i could have made more of an effort to call people and ask them to come see me... but i guess i just felt like maybe they would just offer to do that... maybe im wrong.
well- that's all i have the patience to write for now. im kinda tired, cold and really just want to read a book with my little space heater on. oh- i should add i might even be a little cranky right now! :)
today on my way home from work i decided it was time i blog again. but then i got home and decided that playing monopoly on my wii was a better idea. i played that stupid game for 2 hours. i realized mid way through the game how much i hated the "computerized" version of monopoly. it takes forever- and the computer always seems to win. thank goodness i didn't actually buy the game. i rented it from blockbuster- i figured that was the smart way to test out games im interested in. that way i don't spend $40 on a game that i can't stand. it's just too bad you can't rent a wii fit. im considering buying one... but just can't make a decision. i mean- do you really get a workout using it?!?
so.. in the last 2 months a lot has gone on in life. i was feeling pretty shitty for pretty much all of November. so shitty that i didn't think i was ever going to feel good again.... you know how when you get a cold and you feel like you are always going to have it? that's how i was starting to feel. i was frustrated, tired, weak, cranky, emotional.... you name it.
on December 1st or 2nd (i can't remember) i was admitted to the hospital to have a feeding tube placed in my stomach.... i was down in the creepy cold room where they do the procedure and i hear- lindsey- we won't be able to put the feeding tube in you- your liver is in the way. i remember asking the nurse if i was going to die. even though i was pretty out of it (i don't remember most of my hospital stay) i knew that i need nutrients in my body- and i wasn't able to do it by eating at that time.
i won't bore you with all the details of what went on.. but to summarize i was in the hospital for almost a week- a couple of those days were spent in ICU. my potassium dropped to a 2. (normal is between 3.5-4). the dr's actually told my parents if i was there age i probably wouldn't have pulled through all of this. i was discharged from the hospital on dec. 7th and was sent home with a tpn machine. it's kinda like an iv- but it gave me all the nutrients i needed. i spent 14 hours a day hooked up to this machine. i did this for almost 3 weeks.
skipping ahead to now.... (im feeling lazy and don't feel like typing everything...) i'm feeling pretty good. im able to eat my 3 meals a day and am able to get more fluids in then i was previously. im still not hitting my goal/recommendation of 64 ounces a day- but im trying my best. i started back at work last week. which was nice. i missed the socialization.
i must say- going through all that i have since my surgery has really showed me who my true friends are. i was pretty hurt- that i only had 1 visitor the entire time i was in the hospital and out of work- which was pretty much the entire month of december. in fact- i really didn't have any communication from my friends. a couple people called once or twice to check in- but that was about it. let me tell ya- december was a lonely month. i spose i could have made more of an effort to call people and ask them to come see me... but i guess i just felt like maybe they would just offer to do that... maybe im wrong.
well- that's all i have the patience to write for now. im kinda tired, cold and really just want to read a book with my little space heater on. oh- i should add i might even be a little cranky right now! :)
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